आज सोचा हमने

आज  सोचा हमने
संभालें उन ज़ख्मों को
जिनपर मली गयी थी वक़्त की दवा
लेकिन वो ज़ख्म अब
निशाँ के हवाले हो चुके थे

आज सोचा हमने
फाड़ दें उन पन्नों को
जिनमें समेटे थे गुज़रे कुछ पल
लेकिन तबाह होने से पहले
अफ़साने आँखों में बयाँ हो चुके थे

आज सोचा हमने
अश्कों से धो डालें
यादों की हर तस्वीर को
लेकिन छलकने से पहले ही
अश्क संग हवा के उड़ चुके थे

आज सोचा हमने
समझायें अपनी आँखों को
वो देखें नया कोई सपना
लेकिन संवरने से पहले ही
सपने फिर बिख़र चुके थे

आज सोचा हमने
लिखी जाए एक ग़ज़ल
एक और तराना
लेकिन कागज़ पर उमड़ने से पहले ही
जज़्बात बेज़ुबां हो चुके थे

आज सोचा हमने
दोबारा करें शुरू ये ज़िन्दगी
इस मरतबा खुद के लिए
लेकिन शुरुआत करने से पहले ही
हम फिर किसी और के हो चुके थे

A destructive love affair!

A bad bad bad day today!!! Migraine, once again! How much this stubborn ailment loves me! How much it misses me! So intense, so possessive, so restrictive! How can I be all smiles in its absence! Such an ardent lover, 3 Migranil tablets seem like some candy to it! Naah, not a lover, a sadist! God knows, it's my temperament that attracts it, or its arrival is what makes me temperamental! And it never comes alone. It always has its mistresses tagged along...nausea and fever! Yeah, I am forced into an awful fousome! And what tragedy, I don't have an option of a divorce! According to my lawyer, I can either reduce the intensity whenever it arrives or increase the time between its arrivals! By the way, I have already shown the litter box to its fetishes like caffeine, soft drinks and dark chocolate to keep it at a distance. But it ain't a weak lover, it loves challenges and always finds a way in. Of late, it has discovered a new route: my laptop screen. That's the only window that keeps me connected to my people and through it, it barges into my privacy! 

And you know how was our first meet like?  I had moved in to a new flat. I was late from work, utterly exhausted. I was walking down the lane at around mid night, completely unaware that it was stalking me. And when I hit my bed, there it was, on me and in me! Why was I the chosen one? KARMA ! I had moved in to an apartment that was just next to a building that hosted a massive Reliance tower. So you see, who the Cupid was? Yeah, that tower aimed those cellular frequencies at me, the union was destined!

And now I have to be happy with what I have been tethered to. Right now I am trying my best to keep myself distracted and typing khata khat is the only way to engage my mind that is already overwhelmed with the attack and is wailingly running for its life, looking for an outlet to pour into!

Now that definitely is a bad relationship and the sad part is I don't have an escape route! Siiighhhhh!!!

Guess what? I am feeling better now and I think this ad hoc write up deserves a place in my blog :D But what about the title??? "A destructive love affair" ??? ;) :D

ख़ुशी

इठलाती इतराती

मदमस्त गुनगुनाती

फूलों से रंग चुराकर

इन्द्रधनुष बिखराती

ओस के मोती समेट

बन मृग त्रिश्ना, मीलों फैल जाती

सीप की चादर ओढ़े 

लहरों के गान की  नक़ल उतारती

बारिश की ऊँगली थामे

प्यासी धरती में खो जाती

फिर रच कर कोई खेल

सौंधी खुशबू सी उठ जाती

माँ के आँचल में लहराती

बन किलकारी गूँज जाती

तितली पर हो सवार  

तरसाती,  ललचाती और लुभाती 

झूमती नाचती

मुट्ठी से फिसल जाती

बन एहसास , आँखों में चमचमाती

ख़ुशी तू कितनो को दीवाना बनाती

एक पल  दौड़ती आती

अगले  ही पल छू हो जाती

इठलाती इतराती

मदमस्त गुनगुनाती

फूलों से रंग चुराकर

इन्द्रधनुष बिखराती !

A longing

Through trenches wide and deep,

Across stretches of greens and snow,

Over mountains standing tall and high,

Rolls a fistful of life,

trapped in the ball of time

that erodes by the day, 

Speckled with whatever comes its way...

How it wishes to escape,

To blend with boundless spaces

surpassing its being...

To unite with the force, 

that hitherto kept it alive!